Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Section of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I will be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to generally share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside a course in miracles. Don’t are interested troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider something that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents’satisfaction, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
You can find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.